doctor, doctor!

i haven't posted in a little while. i've been busy lately. sometimes i'm a little forgetful. but hey, what can you do, right?

 

so what have i been up to? well i am officially going to the doctor's in order to be diagnosed with depression, social anxiety and bipolar disorder.

 

it sucks. i'm a mess.

 

i t ' s  a p r i l  1 9 t h

 

what a hideously nice day it is outside. it's cold out but the sun keeps shining like nothing bad will ever happen to the world. oddly enough, yesterday was horrible.

 

the pill bottle grows more tantalizing with each passing day. yesterday i had started to swallow them one by one but after the second i realized that i should wait. i don't want to inconvenience anyone with a funeral right before an easter dinner.

 

i keep having to remind myself that the doctor's appointment will be in three days. or was it two? oh well. it's soon. i just have to be patient for now.

 

let me stop the depression-talk there for now. wouldn't want people to worry over the holidays. haha, but none of you know me so maybe it's a useless worry. for all i know you're reading this because you get a kick out of other people's suffering...? oh well.

 

in other news, i am currently being labelled a home-wrecker. i am trying to steal away some girls boyfriend because i like him and i want him for myself.

 

am i a horrible person? more than likely. do i regret it? not yet. so why do i bother writing things on here? because i can't tell anyone else. i want to write more frequently but i do have to pretend to live life a little. wouldn't want to worry the 'rents.

 

oh well. you'll know what happened to me if i stop writing on here for more than three weeks. at that time it's safe to assume that i'm either hospitalized or i'm dead (finally).

 

aside from wanting to announce the doctor announcement i have nothing else to say for right now. i already mentioned the home-wrexker thing and i've elaborated a bit more on why i write this so...maybe i'll have more tonight? you never know. that's it, that's all.

 

for now i leave you with this.